Sunday, October 14, 2007
So hari raya arrived. It seems that tradition has long disappeared in my family. I stayed at home on th eve and just watched the Korean drama entitled Witch Yoo Hee, which I managed to finish. I didnt bother contacting anyone. Like what Andy said:"In the end, you only have yourself to depend on."
Yesterday was interesting. Visited my grandmother in the morning. I finally got to meet my step cousins afetr so long. I do miss them. After which, I went visitng with my dad's siblings which was the first time for me because usually I would go visiting with my mom's side. I kinda prefer going out with my mom's side. No offence to my dad's side. But i did manage to visit two of my late grandfather's siblings. I feel so sad for them.My granduncle sounds like he is just waiting for his time. I was so moved. He has lost all his vitality all these years as he used to be very close to my grandfather and after the death of my grandfather, he rarely goes out. My grandaunt's memory is failing. It seems I'm the only person amongst my cousins that she can remember. In a way, I pity her. She lost her husband and her brother within the space of a month.
Things like this really got me thinking about how much I do miss people. But in the end, that doesnt matter anymore. I realise I'm a very sensitive person, being able to sense and detect many traits but what I abhor the most is when people don't even bother to cover their tracks when they let slip something out and think that nothing happen. Its absolutely nonsense. A friend of mine asked if I was pissed with certain people because they lacked subtlety and tack. I thought abt it and after awhile I realised that I was more pissed with the fact that they were stuck in a n illusion that they created themselves. Perhaps this could have been adverted if they showed more tack but it riled me even more when they dont even want to admit their mistakes because they are too blind to see them.
IN any case, Selamat Hari Raya Eidulfitri. MinalAidilWalFaIzin
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