Tuesday, October 30, 2007
I dont really know whats wrong anymore. It feels so empty. I hate this feeling.
Its been so long since I had pure fun i feel. There is always something holding me back one way or another. I just dont know who I can turn to or what I can do.
Seriously speaking, my mood changes as fast as the weather and can be as terrible as a thunderstorm or as bright as the hot sun. Just don't expect warmth during my mood swing sessions; I'll rip you apart.
Aft talking to andy yesterday, i reaised something very sad. I'm alone now, with no one to turn to. Clara asked me just now how many friends I have given that she says I seem to know everyone in TP. Well, surfice to say, I dont really have friends in T. I have many, many aquaintences but how many can be actually considered friends? That is a very big qn that I dont think I am in a position to answer.
I've come to this stage where I dont really care anymore what people think. I just want to find myself in this world, something which I think is quite impossible given the hypocritical state of this world.
I have a very big feeling that Wednesday will be a milestone, marking the end as I bid farewell to some whom I once accounted as friends.
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