Here are two poems a friend just shared with me. They were written by some poet long time ago I think.
Enjoy.
Had I the heavens’ embroidered cloths,
Enwrought with golden and silver light,
The blue and the dim and the dark cloths
Of night and light and the half-light,
I would spread the cloths under your feet:
But I, being poor, have only my dreams;
I have spread my dreams under your feet;
Tread softly because you tread on my dreams
My true love hath my heart and I have his.
By just exchange one for the other given.
I hold his dear, and mine he cannot miss,
There never was a better bargain driven.
My true love hath my heart and I have his.
His heart in me keeps me and him in one,
My heart in him his thoughts and senses guides:
He loves my heart, for once it was his own,
I cherish his because in me it bides.
My true one.
Nathaniel Iman sprouted nonsense at
1:31 AM
Sort me! Gryffindor
Brave. Daring. Bold. Chivalrous.
Gryffindor is most often seen as, "the best house," of Hogwarts. Of course, that title can't go to any house in particular, as they all have praiseworthy traits. We know the most about Gryffindor than any other house. To be in Gryffindor usually means you're brave, and borderline reckless.
Occasionally we see Gryffindors with other admirable (and not so admirable) tendancies, but most often we see bravery, however hidden it may be. Even if you think you might be a bit of a nervous wreck, chances are if you're in Gryffindor you have boldness hidden within you, only to emerge in a time of need.
To be a Gryffindor can be similar to saying you're most like a knight, showing bravery and chivalry. You can be very honorable. However, don't let pride be your downfall. Congratulations on being sorted into Gryffindor!
Nathaniel Iman sprouted nonsense at
7:21 PM
I just finished watching Hanazakarino Kimitachihe Japan and it is beautiful. I agree with Amanda's stand that the jap version is better then the taiwan version.
The show focuses on the main characters without leaving out the other cast, something that the taiwanese version failed to do. I can really sense the school spirit that was being portrayed in the show. Furthermore, the comedy shown really makes me laugh my head off. It has drama, comedy as well as sweet and touching moments.
And the ending is so much better! It is really a closure and it makes you really satisfied with the whole show.
How I wish my life can be as fun and as carefree as that.
Nathaniel Iman sprouted nonsense at
3:33 PM
I got bored and since i saw what yanti did, i was curious abt this so i tried it. lol
| The True You |
You want your girlfriend or boyfriend to be more open with you.
With respect to money, you spend whatever you have.
You think good luck might come your way, but if it does you'll be so surprised you'll burst out laughing.
The hidden side of your personality tends to be a little selfish. You only do what interests you.
You are tend to think about others' feelings a lot, perhaps because you are so eager to be liked.
When it comes to finding a romantic partner, you will search and search until you find your perfect match. |
| Your Kissing Technique Is: Perfect |
Your kissing technique is amazing - and you know it.
You have the confidence to make the first move.
And you always seem to know what kissing style is going to work best.
Sometimes you're passionate, sometimes you're a tease. And you're always amazing! |
| Your Love Style is Eros |
For you, love is all about the passion!
And chances are, you're currently in love.
You have a strong physical response to love...
And you are great at committing
(As long as the person makes your toes curl!) |
| What Your Sleeping Position Says |
You are confident and ready to tackle life.
You are pretty vain and happy with your physical appearance.
You are born to be the center of attention, and you're unhappy on the sidelines.
You're always up for trying something new - in and out of bed!
If you don't get enough sleep, you: Look like hell
It's hard to sleep next to you because: You toss and turn all night |
| You Are Somewhat Machiavellian |
You're not going to mow over everyone to get ahead...
But you're also powerful enough to make things happen for yourself.
You understand how the world works, even when it's an ugly place.
You just don't get ugly yourself - unless you have to! |
Your Seduction Style: The Charmer
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You're a master at intimate conversation and verbal enticement.
You seduce with words, by getting people to open up to you.
By establishing this deep connection quickly, people feel under your power.
And then you've got them exactly where you want them!
|
| You're a Playful Kisser |
Kissing is a huge game for you, a way to flirt and play
You're the first one to suggest playing spin the bottle at a party
Or you'll go for the wild kiss during a game of truth or dare
And you're up for kissing any sexy stranger if the mood is right! |
| You Are Merlot |
Smooth, confident, and popular - you're the type most likely to order wine for the whole group.
You seem to breeze through life on your intuition and wit. And no one seems to mind!
You're comfortable in any social situation you find yourself in, and you never feel outclassed.
And while you live a charmed life, you never let it go to your head. You are truly down to earth and a great friend.
Deep down you are: Balanced and mature
Your partying style: Surprisingly wild... when you let loose, you really let loose
Your company is enjoyed best with: Some greasy pizza |
Your Japanese Name Is...
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Nakatsu Anenokoji
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| You Are 53% Real |
You're pretty real with people, but you can't help hiding a good part of yourself.
You're not truly happy with who you are at times... and believe it or not, it shows.
Try not to hide parts of your life from the people who matter to you.
Your friends and family are probably a lot more accepting than you realize! |
| Your French Name is: |
Chevalier Poitiers |
Nathaniel Iman sprouted nonsense at
12:44 AM
One question that I have been asking for some time is how well do you think you know a person? Even if you were to spend years together the truth of the matter is that it is still difficult to understand a person.
I was blog hopping and I came across something interesting in my friend's blog. He was writing about secrets and he said:
"I rather share ALL my secrets with one wise person.
Than expose one little secret to a multitude of fools...
We all need someone to share the deeper details of our lives.
Who we pick is VERY important.
A person who knows your secrets can either build you up or tear you down.
So who you pick to confide in will determine whether your life is built up...or torn down."
"The safest assurance to who to share with?
Of course the one who you were placed accountable to."
And who exactly do I regard as accountable? No one of course. Yet I realise like any human being, I will explode if i do not release all the pent up emotions. Well, it seems that subconsciously, I have taken to realising bits of emotions to people that I meet or talk to. It doesnt matter if they are random or not because basically, a tiny portion of information is harmless. Best of all, these people mostly or almost all the time do not realise that they actually know a tiny portion of my life that I will not reveal to anyone else.
As what was said by Dumbledore in Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows, It is not wise to keep all your secrets in one basket, it is better to spread it across afew baskets. (Or it goes something like that)
Yesterday was an interesting day. It is quite sad to realise that I only got close to Nicholas Cheong during this period when he will be leaving. Fortunately, I decided that I should not be affected by his departure as our friendship will still remain.
As to what was discussed yesterday, I have come to the conclusion that I am not a stubborn person rather I am extremely headstrong. As I mention on the way home to some people, I will do whatever it takes for the good of those around me and I do have the strength the push through with things that are necessary no matter how unpopular they are.
Nathaniel Iman sprouted nonsense at
9:36 PM
I realised how much of a perfectionist I am and that I really do epect alot from everyone around me. Well I just cannot help it when I expect a certain amount of class, courtesy and etiquette from those around me.
Isit very wrong for me to expect all that? I have always pondered over this question. Many time I have tried to change and lower my expectations of others but subconsciously, I have never ever changed. I guess this stems from my frustrations with everyone around me and how everyday, I see crude, immature and uncivilised behaviour all around.
I had a very interesting conversation with Nazmi and my teacher's sister just now during class. We were discussing about the shortcomings of our society and about that blogger. It is such old news and I cant believe she's so slow but oh wells. Nowadays, class seems to be more of a conversation between the 3 of us because the rest are always silent and I think are in a world of their own. How unfortunate.
Nazmi is a much more interesting person then his bro, Naqib. lol. We seem to be subtling insulting each other at every possible moment. Its something that is quite enjoyable as I havent had this much fun tryng to outsmart someone in the name of fun for some time.
Oh and I just saw my aunt's cousin. It was damn sweet that he and his dad went up to me to say hi esp since all that has happen. I really do love her relatives. hmm. And I'm going out with Akit soon!
Nathaniel Iman sprouted nonsense at
5:37 PM
I recently went blog-hopping and I visited several people's blog (like of course) In any case, it was sad to see what people have become. People whom I once regarded as my close friends all just disappear and accuse me of not wanting to meet them or god knows what. Well, I've gotten used to all of this. After all, I realised that not one of my friendship continues on after a period of time (with the exception of one though that one had interesting circumstances). I guess, technically, only Nani remains. That is just sad.
Whatever the case, I am at least glad that I have a terrific bunch of people in poly. Be it in the form of my classmates like Jon, Mel, Jessica, Cass, Clara and of course my dear friend Joey to my coursemates like Sharif, Vanessa, Gd friend Kay, Dhini, Denise Philips, Cheryl, to my fantastic lecturers Ms Chuah, Mr Yong, Mrs Nah, Ms Lau and Ms Tan to my seniors Denise De Cruz, YiZhong, Fredrick, YuRen, Philip to my dearest Clique. Its fantastic to be surrounded by all of you and I truly love my poly life though it has had its fair share of ups and downs.
Gd night.
Nathaniel Iman sprouted nonsense at
10:49 PM
Today's events have brought back memories from the past. How I almost let my barrier fall unexpectedly. It was such a stupid act and a lapse of judgement on my part.
Memories from the past have flooded me once again. Memories of the one and only time I have broken down came rushing back to me. I have no idea why I am even writing this. Perhaps I am just hoping that Rachele will read my blog no matter how miraculous that may be. You were the only one who has ever seen me break down. However, nothing has changed. I still go around wearing the facade that has been with me. The great barrier is still intact even though I have experienced several moments of uncertaincies.
It certainly feels that the shadow of darkness that which I stand in keeps expanding by the day. Its loneliness and sorrow feels deeper and more real truly.
Nathaniel Iman sprouted nonsense at
10:13 PM
well I am now stuck hooked onto a new taiwanese drama. I am such a sucker for dramas. Dang. Really, Once i watch 1 or 2 episodes of any dramas be it a sinetron, taiwanese, korean or japanese drama, I'd be hooked on.
The latest one is titled Tokyo Juliet starring Wu Zun and Ariel. Its not very cliche seeing there isn't just one love triangle. haha. But i love the opening song with its violin and classical influences. PLus, Wo Zhi Tui Ni You Gan Jue was played like 4 or 5 times in 7 episodes. And since I love that song, I give it the thumbs up.
Things have been moving extremely fast these past few days. Way ahead of schedule these past few days. I do realise that certain people feel that, to quote his words or rather mine as I supplied him the phrase, making a mountain out of a mole hill. Well I do agree on certain counts but unfortunately, I believe what I am doing is right. Not doing anything will only cause this problem to worsen. It is time now to actually do something and not sit around and watch. I will take things into my own hands if need be.
Any way, congrats to a special someone for scoring points. I told you that you need not stoop so low just to enjoy life. Now you have a fantastic new entry into your life or at least we all hope so. Looking around at how everyone around me seems to be enjoying things has really made me envious. Are my criterias too stringent?
Nathaniel Iman sprouted nonsense at
11:40 AM
well, i'm at home now. had to go back unfortunately due to some very inconvenient people. Chalet was fun. Joey and me reached at 5 and guess what? only Yizhong, Fred, Shona, Afiq and Philip were there. haha. Fred went crazy and sterelized everything he cld see including the cups and stuff. Hilarious to watch. And Yizhong was trying to serenade the chicken which sounded funny and wrong. Oh and btw, Philip's a year three. His damn nice and wierd. He ended up being the only year 3 who stayed around.
At first, We played on philip's xbox 360 playing guitar heroes i think. We then started to barbecue when Ms Chua, Mrs Nah, Ms tan and Mr yong came. that i tell you is funny. In any case, We renewed our gossips and Ms CHua kept asking why the chalet was yesterday cuz it was the last day of the 7th month.
Mr D came and i tell you, the situation was so different. He kept going on and on about something. And i have no idea why he suddenly commented to Sharif "maintain image, maintain balance" and he said that in a very malay way. later on that night, sharif and me kept trying to figure out what the hell that meant.
That night, denise and co were karaokeingwhich was hilarious. this thing even had a score card so we were all singing or shouting cuz we were super high. haha.
IN the end, sharif and me left at abt 11.50. It took super long to get a cab because firstly, shrif stays in woodlands and secondly, duno why the army people just finished camp so everyone was taking cab. irritating. anyway went back aft that. sharif is quite a nice person. hmm.
Nathaniel Iman sprouted nonsense at
10:18 AM
Well, this is my last post before going off for the CMM chalet tomorrow. Like what Fred said:"Can you feel the mood people?!" That was Fred being Fred, lame as usual. But he had a point. Whats better was that I managed to settle the party stuff with Mel yesterday! So it'll be Joey, Mel, Jes, Suzanne and me sharing as Jon unfortunately will be going home early. Bummer.
Talked to Nadiah on Friday night and we made plans for puasa. The ironic thing is that the dinner will be on the last week of puasa which is about one month away. Its so nice to talk to her again after so long. Its hilarious to see our two worlds collide so often yet we rarely talk. For example, she's the president of TJC's MCS and she's friends with Izzati, the TPJC president who is a gd friend of mine. And now she has a stalker whom I know of because he used to bug me too because he wanted my help for something. Whats more, he used to stalk Syazlina who's my gd friend's, Hannah, cousin and is Hab's friend. SUch a small world. Well, suffice to say, I can't wait to have that dinner and meet her, Azyan, Wani, Haikal, Hafiz and Khairul again. Hopefully, they all can come.
I picked up my aunt yesterday at the airport. Ok well, its more of she waited for everyone because everyone was late. It was fun to meet her again but she'll be off on the 18th. It was amazing that within 2 mins, my two aunts and I managed to plan an outing. We're going to Vivo on wed. Oh and my other aunt was trying to convince me to work at the retail industry. I had only two stores in my mind: AX and CK but she was telling me that Massimo Dutti and Ted Baker isn't that bad.
Well, we wll just have to see.
Nathaniel Iman sprouted nonsense at
11:07 AM
As I read my tagboard, I was astounded to see someone I missed alot tag. Firstly, how on earth did she find my new blog? I really do miss you, Nadiah, as well as the rest. I am glad that one of the few people who added colour and made my primary school life interesting still remembers me (she better).
I think I shall not post on this topic for now because I just recently did.
However, I just hope that god will grant me respite (although I am not exactly going to do good deeds) during this period as I wait for CMM chalet. hopefully, It will be fun and I will be granted temporary respite.
After celebrating birthdays for the Sept people, I realise that this habit of throwing surprise party is now hardly surprising. I miss the old times when I would just celebrate a birthday.. well... upfront. And the only surprise is when someone would whip out a cake. Although it isnt surprising, but it was sweet and we get to do what we would want to do: spend time together and just talk.
I just think that things have changed too much since we all last met. what started out as a group of 6 expanded to 9 and then i think it just got too big. There are just too many personal reasons why its expanding. An eye candy, a love interest, there is just too many personal reasons. I don't feel welcomed anymore. There is just too much whisperings behind each others backs. For example, after the so called talk session where I had supposedly blasted or shot down everyone. Please. I didn't. I only said what everyone else thought. I had to be politically correct and watch what I said. Look around, was anything done after the session? Did people try to change what was wrong? Obviously not.
There just isn't a reason anymore for it to exist.
Nathaniel Iman sprouted nonsense at
10:17 PM
Had an interesting conversation with Cassaundra, Clara, Nicky and Joey after going to pet safari on thursday.
We were just sitting outside eastpoint, enjoying the breeze and chatting. We were discussing how our lives have been in CMM and we decided to point out each other's flaws. The truth is, I feel that I haven't been able to speak clearly about anything. In this harsh reality, you must always be careful of what you say. You have to be politically correct. Its just proving very difficult now. I realise that no matter how much I hate or dislike a person I will still help him or her if in dire need. I am after all human and I cannot bear to watch another suffer.
The passage of time has brought many changes to people's lives. For example, I found out from Ryan that my old 'friend' from TJC is screwing his life up. If this were told to me a last week, I would be extremely delighted but I have come to realize that it isn't right. Nani calls it the bitch in a person.
I think that in all my life, I have come to miss my primary school days the most simply because they were the most innocent. There was no backstab and I could freely mingle around and even become friends with people that I actually disliked. What I would give to be able to return and enjoy those days.
It is perhaps for this reason I have been shunning out many. I haven't been out and about socializing these past few days. I do realize that that piece of information would shock Sara, Andy, Hakim and Nani who have decided to call me the socialite of the group( though when ryan and anavil calls me that, i would so beg to differ. what am i compared to them who are singapore's number 1 beat boxer and one of the wildest people i know respectively)
Perhaps.....
Nathaniel Iman sprouted nonsense at
11:33 PM
Maybe it is time for change.
Firstly, despite Kay's insistance that I would make it, I actually did make it to CMM Council. Denise was trying to desperately console me at first as she told me that I didn't make it. Well, I have to attend a meeting on monday.
Teacher's Day was nice. Whist I waited for 14 at Tanah Merah, I met Mdm Zubaidah, my pri 1 teacher. I swear it was fate as i was just thinking of smsing her at that moment. Had a very interesting time talking to her.
At Temasek, I was so shocked that there wasn't much I had to do to get in. I went to the hall to watch the concert and guess who I saw. WILLIAM JULIANTO!! It was great seeing him again after so long. Dear mentor and idol has been so stressed with his A's. The debate on celibacy was hilarious and obviously Mr Oh was feeling the brunt of the jokes. Let me share with you one of them:
"If Mr Oh can stand not having sex for 35 years, then I am sure the teachers can stand just 3 years of it."
William and me were laughing our heads off. Met up with Saf and Aisyah and we met Ms Morni, Mrs Maesten, Mr Toh, Cikgu Nora and Cikgu Sahriana. Cikgu Sahriana was super fun. She bitched and gossiped as well as updated us about the latest happenings in TMS. Oh and Aisyah declared that TMS now is a school populated by alot of mats and minahs. Well, I agree. the population seems to be categorized into 5 groups: the ahbengs, ahlians, mats, minahs and slenges. Oh and cikgu kept saying that she missed our batch and that she thinks we're the best.
Mrs Ong also came to talk to me. And for obvious reasons I had to chat with her. COme to think of it, she isn't that bad but she should wake up. In the end, the conversation was about two things. The first was about ex TMS students. SHe was saying that they were doing well but i don't think we are really. And she especially should not bring that up after all, they were all under the tenure of Mrs Ouyang which I do dearly love. The second was when she asked why the school wasn't doing very well for geography. Well my answer to her was simply. Only a handful of students in the hwole of singapore take geography. And these students were the crem de la creme of their school. Thus, we cannot compete against these top students.
After the visit, Nani, Nazurah and I went to parkway to have lunch where we were joined by Ryan, Rui Qi and Farah. We had a fun time picking out Mervyns gift( Ryan bought a toilet seat in the end) and we found out that Ryan is attached. THE RYAN CHAN IS ATTACHED!
After that, Nani and I went to watch Ratatouille. It is a Great movie. Seriously. Oh and it inspired me to start cooking and i managed to replicate one of swensen's appetizers.
It has been an interesting week. Exams have ended. I travelled halfway across singapoe to get joey's gift and ate at Han River with Mr Kenny Yong and Ms Winnie Tan.
I do wonder what next week will bring. I already have council meeting on monday and script and screenplay meeting on tuesday. Oh and since I am now in council. I have this huge suspicion that I will have to quit something soon. Perhaps I won't try out for BSC if my schedule is too tight. Until then. good night and good bye.
Nathaniel Iman sprouted nonsense at
9:27 PM
