wel guess what, finally william blogged. my godness. i hv no idea why i always view his blog hopping in vain for a nw post. i really miss that guy. to me, his one of the closest thing to a perfect person i can find.
anywayz, so i went to watch POtC with yanti, amelia, cheong, james and fion. and as with our TP tradition, we were late. haha.. in typial fashion. the movie's qite gd. i swear that jonny depp is one of the best ever actrs. he can act almost any given role. his just so versatile.
so yesterday was very happening. and so the ongong drama finally reached an ending. whether there is a season 2 to the series has yet to be determined by the main cast. i just dont have anything else to say or do.
i am very sorry for the trouble the conflict caused. i do realise that i am to a certain extent wrong and i accept part of the blame. howevr, other factors and players have entered the equation.
in the end, i just love and miss so many people in my life.
Nathaniel Iman sprouted nonsense at
11:26 AM
when things go wrong as they sometimes will
when the road you're trudging seems all uphill
when the funds are low, and the debts are high
and you want to smile, but you have to sigh
when care is pressing you down abit
rest if you must, but don't you quit
success is failure turned inside out
the silver tint of the clouds of doubt
and you can never tell how close you are
it may be near when it seems afar
so, stick to the fight when you're hardest hit
its when things go wrong that you mustn't quit.
its something inspirational i found whilst i was cleaning my room for the upteenth time.
Nathaniel Iman sprouted nonsense at
4:22 PM
the fondness in my heart simply melts away.
i try to turn away at every corner, just seeking for redemption.
but truly, i cannot bare to leave it all be.
the turning of the tide knows no boundary
just as the waves of the ocean knows no fear.
my life, my joy, my bliss
all went down the dreaded path of pain as soon as i came.
even as i know that you will not face me
simply because you cannot.
you have neither the strength, talent, skill nor ability to challenge or even stand up to me
yet i will not take you for granted nor underestimate you
for i have emerged from the chaos and sufferings of the past
filled with experience of pain and sufferings
and lest it may be victory,
i will not go down without leaving a trail of blazing fire
(oh and ps, and people always ask me to open up to them. ever wondered why i never truly open up?)
Nathaniel Iman sprouted nonsense at
12:23 PM
dont you dare come up to me as though nothing has happened! for goodness sake, the only reason why i laboured so hard to finish everything was due the fact that you'r ea useless idiot. to hell with you already.
dont waste my time.
Nathaniel Iman sprouted nonsense at
10:47 AM
my day today was 'GREAT'. if u failed to notice the sarcasm then too bad.
the day started off great with milan winning the champs league but guess what, it just had to be spoilled.
let me start with number 1.
dont u dare use your blog to accuse me of such nonsense. plz, its so cliche. do u think that i'm so weak and pathetic. i dare u to tell me in my face. u'll see more then just fireworks i swear.
now for number 2. u know what? u dont hv to hide. walls hv ears and i thank god that not all the ears hate me. dont bother spreading nonsense abt me. look whos the one not daring to just confront the person and be direct? at the same time i feel sorry for a certain grp of people who fell for his nonsense. as CMM students, i expected so much more frm u all. at least qn all the info gaps that he had when he spread those nonsense.
ok thats enough angst frm me. oh and to hab, i told u it was deja vu
Nathaniel Iman sprouted nonsense at
11:06 PM
i feel so much better now that 2 major assignments are over. thank god! oh and special thanx to adam for printing my logo as well jonathan elias and melanie for caring so much abt my grades. haha. its great to know i hv such great classmates. come to think of it, i really love my class now. esp cassaundra, clara and ben in 1 clique and melanie, jonathan and jessica in another 1 and lastly joey, nichole and madhu in another.
oh and special thnx to my dearest G9 for trying to cheer me up. i am so terribly sorry for my emo mood swings. its just the accumulation of problems are seriously taking its toll on me. in fact, i have been so unwell. its just so unfair. god doesnt seem to be smiling at me.
well at least, i get to take a little break tonight as i watch my beloved AC milan led by my darling bro Kaka (oh how i wish) take on jonathan, kuan wei and hab's Liverpool at the ancient capital city of Athens. oooh. who will experience a greek tragedy? i certainly hope its the latter team for if honathan wins, he will get bragging rights for tmr and i swear i dont think i can endure his ego moments. hahahahah. but whatever the outcome, i BET quite a number of people will be falling asleep in class tmr. haha.
Nathaniel Iman sprouted nonsense at
8:29 PM
i am so sick now. god. i seriously need some redemption.
i just received some reasurance regarding one of my problems but seriously, i dont feel reassured. what to do? i seriously cant take this burden anymore. i need to settle things quickly now. haish. i hate this. h and fyi, i'm having journalism lecture now but its super boring. cant stand it.
oh and as this drags on, i dont thin i will be well enough for sch tmr. i seriously need to see a doctor soon.
Nathaniel Iman sprouted nonsense at
12:19 PM
i miss someone that i can talk to now. i find myself drifting away form everyone on all fronts. i just dont know who i can really turn to. it just feels different whenever i try to turn to someone. somehow i just have to deal with this myself.
i just cannot deal with anymore problems right now. god seriously aint with me. my family is falling apart due to internal squabbles which has left me stuck in the middle, between a rock and a hard place, i just had a very...'civilised' converstaion with a friend that i consider dear, and if it isnt enough, i have tons of assignments due this week. god. i need a reason to go on. it isnt as if i'm not trying to solve them. for instance, we really need to talk. we cant go on just avoiding or ignoring each other. i tried to call u twice but unfortunately, your mobile was off. perhaps it just wasnt meant to be.
Nathaniel Iman sprouted nonsense at
9:39 PM
i feel terrible today. no idea why.
yesterday was nice. went to dinner with ophix people and my dear friends. firstly. i am so sorry to you guys. seriously. i miscalculated some things and i overestimated myself. haish. so sad. and i guess i kind of deserve it when you didnt ans my calls.
on the flip side. i wld like to thank the ophix people for giving me a smashing time. thanx CK and co. for the cake which ended up on my face. and thnx to xiew ling for the nice coffee cake. too bad your scandal wasnt there :p i think xiew ling's hilarious. oh and dont be too sad girl. your a nice girl so dont be affected by what others say.
oh and to cheong keng mun who mysteriously ended up as our pet PIG. haha. firstly, if you die, dont blame me cuz i hv no idea how to take care of 1 :p.
i miss my cousins and my old friends. thank god i will get to meet my old friends this friday and my darling cousins this sat.
and as i look into your eyes
i see an angel in disguise
sent from God above
for me to love
to treasure forever
Nathaniel Iman sprouted nonsense at
3:44 PM
Yesterday was a BLAST! i LOVE YOU GUYS!
anywayz, the started off boringly. i have a confession to make, i actually wanted to stay up till 12 to wish myself happy bday but i gave up and fell asleep. haha. so the day started off with my classmates being shocked to find out that yest was my bday.
aft sch, james and i rushed to buy the markers and stuff. and went to ITAS and guess what? Nicholas Tan Soon Kwang was there! horror upon horrors. he was with cheong keng mun and jolene. so meand james tried to discreetly finish our project. unfortunately we kinda failed when fion came.
went to meet huijing, martin, nic tan and fion at the mushrom. and they BLINDFOLDED ME! i was so shocked! bt the blindfold was really nice! so as i embarressingly moved blindly towards the busstop with darling nic tan leading me. i swear i heard so many people mention my name! so paiseh. we waited forevr for the bus. then we went to pasir ris interchange where we boarded some unknown bus for 12 STOPS!
When we finally arrived at our destination, they opened our blindfolds and right infront of us were our prezzies! granted they didnt get me my beloved CK, but hey, like i said, you cant get the CK in TM. haha.
then we went for dinner and when we returned, guess what? CHEONG KENG MUN WAS THERE WITH OUR CAKE! so sweet lah he. i love him lah for the surprise.
it was surprise aft surprise.
in the end, i reached hm at 12. I LOVE YOU ALL SO MUCH FOR THE SURPRISE!!! oh and thnx to all of u who smsed me or wished me yeah. i love you people. oh and HAPPY BDAY MAY RISSA!
Nathaniel Iman sprouted nonsense at
10:12 AM
well i'm in a bad mood. SOME BLOODY IDIOT STOLE MY FAVE BLACK NIKE SHOES!
damn shit. anyway, had a nice time yesterday. darling grandma called me and asked if i liked chocolate or... chocolate chocolate. haha she's so funny. so i went to cut my hair yest cuz i was so upset over certain things. thank god kason made time for me :) haha. his so nice. oh but poor thing. his lips kinda bled or something because of the heat. poor guy. oh and i was so paiseh as i realised that xinyi was having her hair cut right beside me aft she finished! so slow.
when i got home, my darling grandma surprised me with a swensens cake! WOOTZ! she's super sweet.
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sat had both its ups and downs.
thank god my friends were arnd to cheer me up. and i now officially LOVE TP! since i was already soaking wet, i lied down with my hands and legs spread apart on the track as it was raining. damn nice lah. it really brightened me up.
oh and i met kailing too on sat. she really turned out to be very dif frm what i expected. she's nice and straight-forward. got potential to be a bomb. but then... haha. no one's perfect.
cant wait for tmr and for wed! i love u G9!
Nathaniel Iman sprouted nonsense at
2:56 PM
what am i to do? well if my dear friend thinks that i am backstabbing him, then i guess he is very sadly lacking in intellect. the thing is, i dont strike unless provoked and as far as i am concerned, he made the first move. and sadly, he has vastly underestimated my ability, talent, skill and experience in this field. like hello? you dont survive 4 years in temasek in a position of rank just by being used. thats the only reason why poor john isnt quite known.
haish. i just cant wait for the weekends to come. oh wait. i have archery tmr. but i cant wait for tmr's ophix workshop where i get to go crazy and scare my sad and emoness away. haha. at least for awhile.
well, im actually having journalism now. supposingly doing my article. well i hv finished the article but i'm too lazy and not in the mood to perfect it. oh wells.
Nathaniel Iman sprouted nonsense at
12:28 PM
i am beginning to miss alot of people. feeling lonely oh so often nowadays. i dont really know who i can turn to. even though i might seem to know so many people, the thing is, i am not close to them. i miss people that i can truly talk to and crap all day with such as kuan wei, sara. nani, adam, andy, hakim and even people like safirah, john, shaika.
i find that there's too much politics at play. and thats coming from a guy that often seems stuck in a web. i have no idea why god seems to have been testing me, constantly weaving webs around me.
i seriously feel empty and lonely. perhaps it originates from the fact that its just too difficult to open up to others. but then again, its just my fault. i truly dont know what exactly can be done... i guess, only time can tell.
Nathaniel Iman sprouted nonsense at
7:14 PM
the green dragon.
ok i guess i am making some people puzzled by what i mean by that. well if you have yet to guess then too bad. and as my friend mentioned, the green dragon has many heads... let me see:head a, b, c, d and e. talk abt alot.
but you know what? it infuriates me whenever the green dragon rears its despicable head. i know that the green dragon does own a part of my heart, no matter how tiny it is. but then again, i just cannot stand back and just watch as it tries to strike me from the back. although i have managed to stand up each time, given that it has already struck several time, i cannot possibly be expected to just watch and wait.
until the times come.
Nathaniel Iman sprouted nonsense at
3:26 PM
Pain
how much can you actually trust a person? after being hurt so often by so many around you, isit just possible to allow any other people in? the pain that is felt when you get hurt might just be too much.
Yet, wat else can you do? we all live in a world where no one can truly live in isolation.
alas, only time can tell if i am truly able to open up again....
tiada ku sangka kau sungguh kejam
Nathaniel Iman sprouted nonsense at
11:17 AM
today was a super exhausting day. but first, i have to congratulate my favourite thai badminton player for winning the aviva open! ok granted he has a wierd name (boonsak ponsana) he played super well against the world number 6! oh and i swear his smashes look GREAT! it was super accurate!
oh and archery was super tiring! i swear my limbs nearly dropped off. besides the fact that i havent done PE in around 6 months, the PT was 2 days in a row! but the seniors were fun! aft PT just now, deborah, kenny(bitch), shannon, geraldine and some oth people went for breakfast. oh fyi, i was the only freshie, the rest were all seniors and kenny is known as the bitch, actually he introed himself as bitch, as he apparently loves to bitch. haha. i love archery already.
yesterday went to fion's hse to catch movies. her house is seriously beautiful. it has a chalet feel. super fantastic! we watched harry potter and mean girls. oh and i shall not sit beside yanti anymore. she is super violent. haha. the G9 now decided that we're going to go to the zoo together soon! so random. lol. but i cant wait. oh and there is ohpix workshop next week!
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a smile, a frown, a wink, a blink. i treasure every moment spent in your company.
Nathaniel Iman sprouted nonsense at
10:50 PM
As he gazed into the beautiful and scenic horizon, watching the sunset, a sense of dread engulfed him. For so long a time ago, he longed for someone out there, someone who could understand him, someone whom he could trust. That search he realised, ended in futility. The pain he endured during that period was enough to render him unconscious. Thus, he endured life with the most part unable to fully comprehend the happenings around him.
Yet, as his eyes finally opened, he realised that he was already caught within a game. He was surrounded in a web of pain, deceit and misgivings. Yet what could he do?
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Alot has been going on since i last posted. for one, i totally forgot saihah's bae. i am so sry my daer cousin. i only realised it was your bdae when you friends were singing u a bdae song RIGHT IN FRONT OF ME! wah. so paiseh. so i shall wish you once again: HAPPY BIRTHDAY!
afew people have also falen ill. Nic and kay fell sick yest and had to go home. i sincerely hope the 2 of you get well soon.
oh and me and iman caught martin and huijing scandaling together yest! and so now martin has to blanja us ltr tonight! i seriously so miss you guys. ok gtg. tutorial starting son
Nathaniel Iman sprouted nonsense at
10:28 AM
well, yest was a very long day. had class aft class and finally at 6, the class gathering. i think Mr yap rocks. even though his abuit wierd, he is seriously good at what he does. i cant wait to be under him when i do broadcasting in yr 3. he bought pizza and kfc for us. haha. oh and speaking of sch, i finally found a new project group that i am super comfortable with. i'm doing with iman, amalina and suzanne! haha.
oh and i had lunch with nic cheong keng mun and co. yest. it was so unglam as we had to eat on the floor behind the design sch canteen as there were too many of us. oh and i helped ming do his promo! JIA YOU MING!!! you can make it to bsc main com! OPHIX IS ALL BEHIND YOU!
iman thinks that ms chuah is somehow psychic. haha. he and kay were giggling when ms chuah made a remark abt being the centre of attention. oh and speaking of which, both of us were the centre of ms chuah's attention during class. and iman lamely replied that we were the centre of attraction as we were sitting in the centre of the lecture theater -_-
oh and on sunday, went for dinner with the ophix. it was a G9 minus huijing and james plus some oths. what a waste. it took forever for us to reach serangoon. oh and i swear that the ppl in the bus were so noisy esp with eileen, JY, ming, deb and co. sprouting nonsense. haha. oh and for the record, serangoon is such a puzzling place. i boarded 315 at the bus stop and aft 15 mins of travelling, i found myself at the same spot where i boarded the bus!
i guess you've finally read my blog.... i dont really know what to say other than thank god i was engulfed in darkness last night when you smsed me. i guess its true that i really do have feelings for you. do give yourself more credit. your a very smart and beautiful girl who deserves so much more. do smile and stay happy always....
Nathaniel Iman sprouted nonsense at
10:18 AM
