Sunday, April 29, 2007
ok so as i sit here in front of the computer at 7.45AM feeling pissed as hell(in a way) i will just take this opportunity to blog.
i got selected to join the TP archery school team!!! WOOTZ! firstly, thnx so much to hab, kay and brenda :) for spurring me on and giving me hope! i swear i wldn have been able to get through without your support. thnx to nic, iman and kevin as well for being part of my team! but then again, there's always a bitter moment. i dont think nic got through. i feel super guilty. he was the one who seriously really wanted this. perhaps if i had not joined the trials, he would have made it. i only pray that god was just pulling my leg and that nic did get through. seriously, i cannot help but feel guilty that one of my closest friends in TP didn get through. haish.
oh and if you are wondering why on earth i am up so early when it is so much more comfortable to slp in this fantastic weather, well, i was supposed to have archery PT but it was cancelled. what a bummer.
oh and i think i might have archery training on THURSDAY!! horror of horrors! i swear it will mess up my plans. oh but jerome says that he will confirm with me again :) i really hope that it doesn't start this week!
oh and i have to give ALOT of credit to kay. kay, i swear you are an angel, a gift of god(haha oh and incidentally, thats what nathaniel means) to help me! thank you so much for helping me. its due to your help that i am in such an euphoric mood!
oh and i think i seriously need to learn from jonathan elias. i need an ego boost! haha. no seriously, i need to work on my inferiority complex. something is seriously wrong with me. even nadiah, one of oldest friends, told me that there is something wrong with my confidence. i miss my old confidence. will you come back? haha. and to think not so long ago, people were relying on me to help boost their ego.. oh sry i meant confidence. and now others need to help provide a push to help boost my morale. haish. oh and btw, its almost 130 smses now. :) i swear my parents will kill me but then again, i think its worth it.
i swear that even though we only stopped smsing to slp, i still miss you. i miss your presence. i miss your face and i miss your words. and yet i have to wait till you rise to receive even a hint of your presence. :) till we meet tomorrow
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