hmm.. i always wondered wat can blogs be used for? i've seen some pple turn it into a personal chatroom, a discussion place not many diaries tho. but most importantly, i've seen afew used to so call 'send messages' to people. in other words backstab lah.
its a wonder dont u tink how hypocritical people can get? in front of u will be so smily n fake yet behind a scheming witch. haha interesting how mankind has evolved. i was discussing this topic with mr oh at bugis dat day n altho he tried his best to change my preception of 2 things, i juz dont tink he is right on de 2nd issue. de first 1, he was spot on n aft a little chat wif my dear fren, alot of air was cleared. de 2nd well... i guess he didn noe de whole story.
i'm juz incensed at some people hu seem to tink their word is god. its lyk dey tink dey r de best. come on lah n wake up. ur not dat great n since u tink ur so great at deceiving ppl, lets juz say dat ur de actual fool n dat every1 juz wants to play along wif ur game waiting for de right time to pounce. wake up! hu on earth wld wana befriend a hypocrite??
niwayz, i realli hope that you will get better soon and that you will be able to overcome your current problem. all the best for your EOYs
Nathaniel Iman sprouted nonsense at
7:42 PM
i'm feeling quite satisfied with myself... i scored an amazing A2 for my malay O's!! wootz! haha. of course i was hoping and praying for an A1 but realisticaly speaking, i was an expecting a B3.
the day began with 2 tests back to back. seroiusly i'm so gona funk physics. haish. niwayz, went to the canteen late n guess wat? isya went to me n said "eh man, how much u get for malay?" i was stunned. i didn expect the results to be out on dat day. i spent the rest of the makan period praying like a monk. haha. wat an analogy. niwayz, went to class still praying n cikgu nora almost laughed at me. she said dat ONLI 8 distinctions. i was so sure dat i was so not gona be n dat grp.i'm not even in de top 10 in class.. most of de indon peepz were streets ahead of me not counting our malay flagbarers sham, raihan n suhaila. amazingly i got an A2!!! wo hoo.. over de moon
i quickly smsed haikal n he got a B3. he kept complaining to me dat he did badly for orals. he scored a merit btw. i was laughing at him.. haha. it was just like old times. oh n for thos hu dont noe him, haikal has a bigger moth den me so naturally he was expecting a distinction. n i gave him some advice: jgn asyik fikirkan eka. haha...i tink i kinda pissed him ABIT. haha... so sorrry my dear fren but u need to concentrate on ur studies already.
i wana write dis to 1 of my dear frens:
i realise dat some people may not trust r decision to be wif him. but i believe dat de decision is urs n urs onli. i hv nothing against him for i noe dat der fantastic qualities in every single person. in fact, i fully support ur relationship wif him n i hope dat he brings u happiness n will fill de void left by ur frens hu r now busy with either their own personal life or other activities. i onli pray dat he does not turn out like ur last 1.
i wana dedicate my success to several people: my family for being der in my life no matter how painful it has been. haha, to adam n hakim for studying wif me,nani and izzati for supporting me, my cikgus' be it sec sch or pri sch for laying de foundation n guiding me,syazuna n habiabh for de words of support tho i doubt de latter wld even read dis, sara n hannah for de fantastic support n esp hannah's confidence dat i wld get an A whilst i was busy praing in de canteen n lastly to haikal. i duno y i decided to mention him but i guess its due to de great memories n experiences dat i had dat propelled me to new heights. haha.
ilove you allfrom de depths of my broken empty heart
Nathaniel Iman sprouted nonsense at
8:15 PM
awaking from my dreams... was just a nightmare. I truly love the experience and relish the memories but to what end? the fairytale is over no matter what you say.
I feel very empty, like a wandering soul searching for purpose.. for meaning. Where can I truly find the light? perhaps only time can tell. in fact, i often wonder if i ever will. in today's ruthless world, many are displaced or left behimd. well let me say this to all the posers out there, you have no meaning in my life. perhaps you were there to leech on me or something but i assure you, you have caused more damage than you can ever imagine.
siapa yang makan lada dia yang ter rasa chilinya i can only look back and admire the success others have managed to achieve. i'm not talking all about all those well known people but some people surrounding me. People like william, mr oh, miss lee... even adam they all have their path in life carved out in stone.
i sound like an drunk. well perhaps i am... but not in alcohol but drunk in sorrow and pain...
it was just not ment to be
Nathaniel Iman sprouted nonsense at
8:20 PM
