Friday, March 11, 2005
hi guys... firstly i am so sorry if i scolded any1 or offende any1 juz now... i was so damned pissed off abt somethin which i'll elaborate later.... i dont realli want to tink of it but now i have no choice cuz i'm stuck at home today because of dat thing... on a happier note, de hols are here!!! tho i have no reason to be happy abt it....
well for starters, i have chem class, leadership course n also malay oral all crammed into dat 1 week, not to mention de huge pile of work my dear teachers decided to give....wat type of hols is dis?? its beginin to sound crappier....
oh ya, n did u remember dat at my last post, i said dat things couldn get any worse? well, it juz did... way worse den i can even imagine....... ok before i continue, i want u guys to ans dis question... wat is backstabbin u guys?? haha.. i noe dat u may say dis or dat but u noe wat? dis person i once considered a friend tinks dat backstabing is when a person talks to his frens crush wif out his permission... wierd huh? n wats more is dat another i also considered a fren had de cheek to get involved.... okie u noe wat, let me tell u wat got me SOO DAMNED PISSED!!! well let me name de characters, me, two people i considered friends, one, a person dat i knew quite recently named a, n another i knew for quite some time named b..... so well b had a crush on dis gal, lets call her g, n den told me n b.... den aft dat, b n me met dat gal before a.... n den i started to talk to her juz as a fren.... but den a got jealous n said dat i backstabed him.. is dat wat u called backstab?? n to make it worse, b had de cheek to take sides wif a.... okie dis was how last night was... i sms b a few times... but den b never reply... so i asked a wat happened to b n a said dat b had family probs... me being all gulible n sensitive abt frens tried all dat i could to try to comfort b.. even to de extent to calling some peepz to ask wat i shld do to try to help..... well u noe wat? later, i asked a again y b neva talk... den a say dat was b'cuz dat i got do somethin to him n alot of other crap lah... i was VERY shocked.. all dis time, i treated b lyk a close fren n even admired him abit....n den a also say dat i backstabed him n stuff.. wat de hell man... dat was de worst thing dat can happen to me at dat time.... i mean i was extremely exhausted at dat time cuz i had juz came back from spendin 4 h at de hospital cuz my mom had juz finished surgery n den i tried my VERY BEST to try help b whom i thought was havin probs n now a was sayin dat dat was an act n he was juz tryin to ruin my life..... WAT DE HELL MAN!!! i admit dat i was gulible cause i usually do everythin i can to help my frens..... i so regret even noeing dey exist.... oh n he had de cheek to ask if i wld forgive him... i said to him dat for de sake dat i once considered u a fren, i will fogive u.... dats all.... oh n i also congratulate b for puttin a fantatic act together.. as good as i am in acting, i was realli fooled as i tried my best n even panicked when i believed dat u wer in trouble...
oh ya, i wrote dis juz now in class cause i needed to get somethings out of me n de onli reason y i didn explode cause i'm drinkin coffee every 2 h now to keeps my emotions in check : i concede dat i was too naive to believe n to hope n to try to understand de troubles of a person. in times of need, i try to do my very best to help n do everythin in my power even if der will be consequences on me. i am willing to do everything i can no matter how painful it will be for me..
to tink dat i once counted dem as good frens, i did everythin i could to help dem in everythin i can as i treasure friendships above almost everythin else.. i am always der for any in times of trouble at de expense of my own... to me, dey deserve my time, help n attention, i still hold to my principles even tho i noe it will be my downfall...
on a happier note, i wld lyk to wish fir a happy birthday tomorrow n u'll get a real treat frm me tomorrow........
well.. i realli hope dis time dat things will get better... well, bye......
Nathaniel Iman sprouted nonsense at