Wednesday, March 09, 2005
hello peepz..... i noe many of u may have noticed dat i wasn arnd durin recess juz now..... i'm quite sick lah..... havin a bit of fever so had to go back..... today's been a terrible day for me.... in so many ways n i juz dont wana talk abt it.... actualli, de whole week was terrible.... well, by de way dis is goin, i can onli hope dat it can get better..... actualli while i type dis out, i dont realli expect any1 to read..... i juz want to pour out my feelings dat have been bottled up inside of me for so long before i myself explode.............
i've been feelin very sick these few days, not onli dat, i've also had so many problems.... so stressed...... where should i start?? i myself dont noe.........
i dunno if any of u noticed, but i've been very diff these few days.... my so called aura of confidence is long gone....... haiz...... i dunno wat to say now... i mean, i was once full of self confidence n motivation...... now, when i try to help n encourage others, i find dat i have no right to do dat..... how am i supposed to motivate n try to instill some self confidence in others if i myself have lost my will to do almost everthing... everything in life i once stood for... all gone for me..... its as if i dont have anything to live for anymore................................................
anyway, lets change de subject.... at least ders somethings i can look forward to... de hols r comin.... whee..... haha...i sound crazy... but hey, i realli deserve dat break although i still have tons to do durin de hols.... i have chem class wif chooi, student leader workshop n also malay oral... wat a holiday right??? de bitter irony...... a holiday dat u cant realli enjoy.... besides dat, ders 2 concerts i can look forward to.... i can finally forget my troubles for awhile.... haiz......... anyway, i've picked de clothes i'm gona wear!!!! i'm gona wear de same thing i wore to de band concert to Temasek idol!!! havent realli worn dat so i need to show it off a bit more... haha... well dats better... cheers me up abit.....
well its true wat dey sey abt every cloud has a silver lining....today at least i woke up to some great news.... watched chelsea dump barca out of de crem de la crem of european soccer... n also my beloved AC win over Man Utd..... haha... now dats pure magic....
anyway, overall, its been a rollercoaster ride for me.... der were plenty of downs n scarce ups.... well dis way, life can onli get better right??i mean, it cant possibly get any worse.... well wish me luck n i hope i can get thru dis.....
Nathaniel Iman sprouted nonsense at