Wednesday, December 29, 2004
hi guys... first of all i wana wish u all happy new year in advance..... anywayz i checked my next year results n i'm in 3N... i dunno abt dis new system but who cares anyway....
while talkin to my old friend naddie yesterday made me wonder if i have been takin alot of things for granted.....(oh n syakirah doesn believe i sms her yesterday... haha she still tinks it was nadiah hu was juz tryin to play a prank on her by posin as me) it made me realise dat i would be loosin a lot of people next year.... from Syakirah to Eugine to firdaus to even Jane....
dis few peepz especially have played a part in my life n dey will forver leave a hole in my life where dey nce occupied in my life... i sound so emo sey..... but hu cares... de last time i felt like dis was when i was goin to secondary school.... back den de friends dat i lost were Haikal,... haha i will forever miss u... u were once my veri close friend, n alot of others..... actualli durin de hols i couldn wait to meet my friends when school re-opened... but now i'm not so sure.... i realised now dat Firdaus wont be der for me to talk to abt 'stuff', Syak wont be around to help plan things n Eugine's 'gayness' wont be around to brighten n make things more interesting.....
i noe now dat i've been taking things for granted... like i said to nadiah yesterday.... i feel so empty like when i lost my pri school friends... i noe u all will say dat u dont loose friends or dat u can still remain friends even if diff school n all de other crap.... but de truth is ur relationship wif dem will be veri diff...i'm sure u will admit dat.... now, as i write dis post, i can onli feel sadness n pain n lonelyness...
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